I Didn’t Need You to Take Care of Me After My Miscarriage, I Needed to Take Care of Myself

A friend of mine just suffered a miscarriage. I stopped by with milk and cookies for the sole purpose of holding her hand. I told her I was sorry. I cried alongside her. And then I sat there, clenching her hand in silence for nearly an hour. Deep in the quiet, my heart wanted to […]

To the Daughter I’ll Never Have

Dearest Daughter, You might not know this, but I’ve spent most of my life wishing for you. From the time I was a child, I diligently cared for my baby girl dolls with all the love and attention a mother could give. As I imagined my life as a wife and a mom, the someday […]

What Am I Supposed to Do With These Empty Arms?

Babies. Everyone around me is having babies. In just the last six months, two of my very best girlfriends gave birth to beautiful, beautiful babies. And right about now, I thought I’d be holding one of my own. As I approach the June 6th due date of my chemical pregnancy, I find myself wondering more […]

Maybe Baby: On Deciding Whether to Try Again After a Miscarriage

A little over a week ago, I helped host a baby shower for a dear friend. I was happy to do it. As her bestie it’s my honor and privilege to stand by her side in celebration of beautiful life moments such as these. Her shower turned more beautiful and perfect than I could have […]

On Telling My Kids that I’m No Longer Pregnant

You might not know that just a week ago Monday I learned I was pregnant. I got excited. I told select people. Grandparents knew, close friends knew, and worst of all, my kids knew. Should I have waited more than a millisecond to tell my kids I was pregnant? Probably, but the joy, you guys. […]

Remembering the Baby I Lost

Today, October 15th is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. All around the world, mothers are lighting candles in remembrance of their angels that were lost too soon. Six years ago I became one in four women to experience a miscarriage. While I may have gone on to give birth to a healthy baby boy […]

Forever Part of Me

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Trying Again: My Personal Story

  Last week things got kinda heavy on this normally light-hearted blog when I shared my pregnancy journal of the baby I lost at 9 weeks.  Back when I was struggling with my loss I remember wishing more had been written about the anxiety and mixed emotions involved with deciding to try again.  I wish I could offer more to the Mommy Friend facing such […]

My Journal of Loss

Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.  In honor of this important day, I thought long and hard about whether or not to share my story.  My head told me not to but my heart disagreed. Below is my personal pregnancy journal of the baby I lost but will always remember. June 20, 2006: The First Step While we haven’t […]

Spirit Baby

I haven’t taken to my blog to write about my personal experience with pregnancy loss nearly 4 years ago, perhaps in time I will share my story.  A dear friend sent me the following excerpt from Part IV of “BabyCatcher: Chronicles of a Modern Midwife” by Peggy Vincent when I needed it most.  This story brought me […]